Weird emotional musings
May. 24th, 2002 07:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
burntcopperOr, Heather's thinking too much.
Dad pointed out that Mum had been depressed this week. Realised am possibly one of the more oblivious people in this world. I only recognise a small range of moods in people :
upset
happy
tired
angry
I completely don't recognise anyone else's life stuff. Most disturbing. Chemistry and flirting I can see - mate of mine and a bloke dancing round each other for a weekend, me thinking 'When are they going to get on with it?' - but that's about it.
Think it's something to do with the fact that I don't tend to go very deep with my own emotional states. Mostly spend it in the median state, never get too upset or angry with stuff. Pissed off doesn't last too long, irritated and happy do, and cynicism rules my brain in general thoughts. Depression I don't recognise until after I'm out of it or someone actually sends me to the counsellor, whereupon I spend a while pouring my heart out, go into floods of tears, then give myself a kick up the arse once the hour is up and become all kick-arse and motivated. Quite scary, really.
Anyway, me depressed seems to consist of feeling sorry for myself, wondering if people would miss me if something happened to me tomorrow, being completely sans ideas and having Tori Amos' Little Earthquakes on near constant repeat.
Anyone else got any depression songs?
Dad pointed out that Mum had been depressed this week. Realised am possibly one of the more oblivious people in this world. I only recognise a small range of moods in people :
upset
happy
tired
angry
I completely don't recognise anyone else's life stuff. Most disturbing. Chemistry and flirting I can see - mate of mine and a bloke dancing round each other for a weekend, me thinking 'When are they going to get on with it?' - but that's about it.
Think it's something to do with the fact that I don't tend to go very deep with my own emotional states. Mostly spend it in the median state, never get too upset or angry with stuff. Pissed off doesn't last too long, irritated and happy do, and cynicism rules my brain in general thoughts. Depression I don't recognise until after I'm out of it or someone actually sends me to the counsellor, whereupon I spend a while pouring my heart out, go into floods of tears, then give myself a kick up the arse once the hour is up and become all kick-arse and motivated. Quite scary, really.
Anyway, me depressed seems to consist of feeling sorry for myself, wondering if people would miss me if something happened to me tomorrow, being completely sans ideas and having Tori Amos' Little Earthquakes on near constant repeat.
Anyone else got any depression songs?
