dragons follow my relentless

[burntcopper]

argh. why am I so crap at applying for jobs? I keep hitting the job requirements section and get an attack of insecurity (all the qualifications that they never mention on the ad), even though I've been assured that you can learn this stuff in time/'experience' does not mean competent. And then there's the fact that 90% of the places I apply to are the 'fill-in the form, monkeygirl' type due to being name places (to cut out all the scarily formatted student cvs on black sparkly paper) which take me fucking forever to fill in and I keep getting distracted.

Playing with phone. getting occasionally frustrated, but it's all part of the learning process. :sigh:

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There are very few things less fun than trying to sell yourself when you're half-convinced that nobody is interesting in buying; and every negative or inconclusive response you get just adds to the angst.

It's damn difficult sometimes. Speaking personally, I've been working in my field for 13 years now, and I still feel that I know nothing and that no-one in their right mind would want to employ me.

Rationally, I know that I'm good at picking stuff up on the hoof; and that I've ultimately settled into every job I've had and done it at least passably well; but that never seems massively reassuring when you're trying to get off your backside and motivate yourself to do the Job Application Happy Fun Dance.

If your current job is not making you happy, then it's time to move job; and the longer you delay it, the worse your mood will get and the less your self-confidence will get (because the the lurking thought that goes 'you should be looking HARDER for a job, you useless layabout!' will just add to the argh-I-know-nothing insecurities.

(And yes, I'm a fine one to talk, having been in the process of girding my loins for about 13 months now. In my case, I got to the point where carrying on as before would see me going nuts; the avoidance of which is certainly a good reason for jobhunting, but it's not one I'd particularly recommend if you can motivate yourself some other way.)

There are jobs out there that are better-paid and more interesting; and you can do them; and yes, it involves unfun jumping-through-hoops, at least to start with, but the alternative is infinitely worse.