assessment, yay!

[burntcopper]

Had assessment at work. Which lasted 1h45m. It was... thorough.

Many things were gone over in detail. Considering my side of the form that I'd filled out often included 'er... possibly' and 'um, what?' 'we do not speak about customer services' 'leadership? me? I think *not*' and the classic 'I feel my sewing skills are under-utilised' (the form did *ask* what skills you have that you don't use), it's scary how much detail they went into or pulled out of me.

The 'how do you feel about your training of other people went' produced 'er, what?'. Then they pointed out that I'd trained everyone in my department and it seemed to have worked out rather well. I keep forgetting that. And that I keep records on things, notes of what doesn't work, possible solutions, re-wrote various manuals and have the most techie knowledge of the system of our lot. I keep forgetting this because it gets swallowed by day-to-day. The fact that I describe myself as 'needing a good kicking occasionally' seems to disturb my bosses. As well as telling them that if you want something to get through to me, you need to be ridiculously blunt. 'you, er, don't subscribe to the idea of treat others as you would be done by?' 'oh, sure. I'm just saying that if you want something to get through to me specifically, it needs to be blunt.' 'How would you describe Morven's work?' 'Ridiculously efficient, goddess on earth, do you want me to be embarassingly gushy?'

I think they keep being a little surprised by my tendency towards colourful euphemisms for things. They work with me every day, they should be used to it and stop blinking and vicibly re-wiring their brains at such phrases as 'branches that contain entire trees and we so don't go there'.

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*blink*
*blinkblink*
That actually sounded like fun. And that they're justifiable glad to have you there.
*rereads*
Stranger than fiction. First non-traumatising assessment I ever heard of ;)

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oh, the fact that I have behaviour issues, arrogance issues, disrupt people around me and avoid things I don't like as long as possible was also gone over. These were just the sticky-out bits of it.

Oh, and 'Do you think more meetings would help?' was met with 'You do know I heckle, right?' 'ah, yes, the heckling. perhaps not.'

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also, I er, steamroller people who don't speak up. my last objective setting, I walked in (workload being catastrophic at the time), announced that if it took longer than half an hour I was walking out because I had more important things to do, dictated what was needed, what we were lacking, went out, then spent five minutes hyperventilating due to the realisation dawning of what I'd just done.

...It is not my fault that my bosses are softly spoken, reasonable, *nice* people. Though I should be worried that they filled the department with loud, opinionated arrogant sods to basically fit in with me as people left for other departments and jobs. On the other hand, we're all apparently quite efficient and scary in our ability to plough through masses of work. However, they hire us, and then they complain about the noise.

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I was going to answer yesterday, marvelling at your strangely nice and meek bosses, but then fell into a pit of bitterness and thought I might see this skewed. Now of course you confirm their niceness *lol* but also that you still are just what they need.

I guess it's nice to know that sometimes, actual results count more than how well you sell yourself.