:wince: okay, just found a squick I didn't know

[burntcopper]

Been going through capkink when I'm at that point of staring into space on the nano, and though I know my kinks and turn-offs (BDSM bores the shit out of me, f'r instance.), for once I was reading through one and suddenly started scrambling backwards at speed. Someone posted hurt/comfort Steve/Bucky where Steve gets sicker than usual. (for those who don't know the Captain America backstory: Steve wasn't just weedy, he had lung problems and a few other bits) The author started posted about hacking coughs and getting sicker and ... yeah, that was me scrambling backwards at speed. Too fucking close to the bone. I know I joke a lot about my lung problems, and brush a lot of it off as I know most of what you hear isn't serious, it just sounds bad. That one, with the added symptoms was too close to those times when I've been curled up in severe pain and wheezing and start getting worried as hell. That time I had bronchitis as a kid, or the time I had the lung infection, or the time I tore a tendon. Or those times when I look at the phlegm I've just coughed up and surreptitiously check it for blood, even though I know the chances of there ever being blood in there is a million to one. Too much in popular culture about TB, I guess. (and yes, I have been checked for it and had the all-clear)

Anyway, nano as of last night:

word count: 7324
where I need to be by end of today: 8334